Ryan is 15 months old and is still breastfeeding. My goal was 1 year. I don’t know what I thought would happen at that point… he’d magically stop? It’d just go away? It’s not so easy.
I’m not saying I want to quit because I don’t. I don’t see how I could! Ryan runs over and either gives me the sign for “milk” or he simply rips my shirt off–really. We’re trying to teach him that this is not okay to do in public haha… so then he just sticks his hand down my shirt. (See below).
There’s no way I could turn him away or say no! If he wants to nurse and I’m still making milk, why not?
Sometimes… the thought of quitting or having it end someday makes me want to cry. Then he won’t be my baby anymore! I can’t lose my baby! It’s just like co-sleeping. Steve mentioned the other day that he’d like it if Ryan slept in his crib all night so he could more easily sleep in our bed (we need a king!). I started crying. Seriously. Of course I love sleeping in bed with Steve, but I also love sleeping in bed with Ryan, my cuddle bug. And someday, he won’t want to sleep with me anymore! AHHHHHH!
But sometimes… the breastfeeding drives me CRAZY. Sometimes Ryan wants to do nothing ALL DAY but sit on my lap and nurse. I swear there isn’t even any milk coming out at some point, but he just wants to relax on the boob. And his new thing? He HAS to be touching/grabbing one side while he’s nursing from the other. Sometimes it’s funny, sometimes I can’t stand it.
On Saturday night he slept over at my mom’s house and then I spent the entire day Sunday at a pregnancy expo (for our ICAN chapter). So it had been awhile since I had seen Ryan by the time I got home Sunday night. He ran over, excited to see me… I reached down to pick him up and give him a hug… but he backed away from me–to make the “milk” sign. Forget the hug, mom! I just want your milk!
I’m a pacifier, a lovey, a bottle and a pillow.
How long did you breastfeed or are you planning on it? How did you wean or when did your child wean on their own? I’d like to let Ryan decide when he’s ready to be done nursing, but at this rate… I’m afraid he’ll be 15, haha.