I spent the majority of Friday stuck in front of my computer trying to keep up on the news as it unfolded. We don’t have TV so I did my best with news clips online and the wonderful world of social media. I cried, I hugged my kids… I desperately tried to wrap my mind around what was going on. My kids aren’t yet in school, but Ryan will be very soon. Over and over I imagined myself going to get him from school and never seeing him walk out of those doors. Terrible things to have to think as a mother and my heart breaks into a million pieces when I think of the parents and siblings and families of everyone affected and the poor little babies (and adults) that have lost their lives. I can’t imagine. I can’t even comprehend it. WHY, why, why. And HOW… WHAT was wrong with that kid and WHY did no one notice and HOW did this happen and HOW can we prevent it from happening ever again. It’s sickening, so beyond disgusting and depressing and heartbreaking and… there are just no words. Thoughts and hugs and sympathies and tears and everything else…. we will never forget.